St. Vincent de Paul,
Saturday, September 27, 1997
Dear Jesus and Holy Mother,
"Now I shall die happy, since the Sacred Heart of my Saviour is beginning to be
known; for it seems to me that, through His Mercy, I am almost wholly stripped and
divested of esteem and reputation in the minds of others, which consoles me more than I
can say." (St. Margaret Mary; "Thoughts & Sayings," !!, 322; for
September 27)
O! St. Margaret Mary, may I share with you awhile? I was so pleased whilst
on retreat, to hear the readings of your life as we dined. How YOU doubted self.
Not God, but SELF. Thank you for accepting me into your company of
self-doubting. Doubting, at times, that I could possibly be in this place of hearing
and knowing so intimately this Divine Love Who Graces us. St. Margaret Mary, a year
ago when I read you word here, I could not imagine your being HAPPY for a loss of
reputation and esteem in the mind of another. I could not knowledgeably equate to
it. But I do praise God that He has permitted me to know of such insult to self here
now, one year later. And I do praise our God and I thank Him for this opportunity
that some, so close to my heart, have accused me of being a false prophet. For it
has served to peel away thick layers of ego which I might not have otherwise relinquished.
There is a JOY in this spiritual nakedness, isn't there, St. Margaret Mary? I
thank God for those who have permitted this blessing to me! And dearest Saint, there
are those who have pursued me: that the Words I write for Jesus are not His Own.
That I am engaging in a sort of forgery. I have been dragged into the legal
arena by those who have accused me. My only comfort in being there are the Words of
Jesus to me for those who have accused me, and the prayerful counsel of the lawyer
appointed for me. When I think of this, dear Saint, I rejoice! For I have not
created it. It has been forced by other hearts and I do not know why. But God
knows why and that is all I need to know, dear St. Margaret Mary. [Now at 6 a.m., I
pause to pray the morning prayer Jesus has taught me.....] I am grateful for these
minor inconveniences, that I may offer enduring them, to Jesus for the Pleasure of His
Most Sacred Heart. I praise God for the blessed growth it affords my spirit.
And I smile as I ponder it all. For I am learning of Joyful Suffering.
Of the Loving Depth in the Wounds of Christ. Over three years ago, as I read
the growth of another who is travelling with our Jesus, I could not comprehend why one
would embrace a path of difficulty and self-effacement in the Lord. And thanks be to
God, I have grown by His Grace, to embrace this place in which He permits me to be.
Amen! Alleluia! God be praised! Thank you, St. Margaret Mary, for
your own "yes" to God that I might have you now, as a blessed friend.
Good child, now read the Word of my Son. (Yes, Mother.) [I
have been awakened at 2:49 a.m. and then again at 4:45 a.m. to be with Jesus and Mary.
I have been instructed by Holy Mother to recollect on the words of St. Margaret
Mary today.] [Jesus speaks after I read today's readings in Scripture.....]
My daughter, I would speak to you now of the word you have written. Of that
which you have read which is My Own. (Yes, my Lord and my God.)
Daughter, record these words. There is no waste in Me. I am Purpose, and
I use all presented to Me for My Own Good. The Plan that I have is Perfection.
The Plan that I have, would unite mankind. The "other" would prowl
and attack My Plan. Every form of division is a seed sown by him. And those
who assist him are laborers in his field. Some laborers have not looked carefully at
what they do. They only see what is in their near vision. They have not stood
far enough off to see the scope and breadth of My Plan, though no eye can comprehend its
magnitude.
Lambs, hear Me: if you sow seeds of disillusionment; if you sow seeds of
disunity; if you sow seeds of disharmony; if you sow seeds which breed anti-charity, then
you are not working for Me. What happens despite your deeds is an Act of Mercy on My
Part, for My Sheer Love of humanity. See My Word, My Gospel. Yes, Sarah, write
here these words to which My Mother has alluded:
"And all were astonished by the Majesty of God. While they were all
amazed at His every deed, He said to His disciples, 'Pay attention to what I am telling
you. The Son of Man is to be handed over to men.' But they did not understand
this saying; its meaning was hidden from them so that they should not understand it, and
they were afraid to ask Him about this saying." (Lk. 9:43-45)
Children, what have I said of fear? Let it not keep us apart. I am here
to teach you, My lambs. Are you not, as well, to be childlike? How does a
child learn, but to ask, "Why?" And though the answers are metered to the
ability of the child, the discourse is the teaching at hand. But I cannot explain
that which you do not ask. And so, Truths remain hidden. And in your
embarrassment for your ignorance, you cover yourself with self-thought. You
interpret that which you do not understand. You do not stop to ask My Advice.
You do not seek My Counsel. You seek your own. To protect your own
ways. But not MY Own.
My children, hear Me. I am a Merciful God. And here you are now, in
possession of your own thought. Your own way, aside of Mine. But lambs, am I
condemning you? No. That time has yet to arrive. For those who follow Me
and hear My voice, this is a time of Grace. And all will witness the Power of Me in
My Glory, visible in the Way that I provide.
My Word lives. Are you willing to abandon yourself to Me? Are you
willing to put aside yourself for ME? Are you willing to admit to error in the
Perfection of Me? Are you willing to abandon all thought which has divided, again,
My Garment? Do you see how history is doomed to repeat itself because it has refused
to Give to Me the things which are Mine? Your hearts?
Lambs, hear Me. I come to gather souls. Now I ask you: if your
activity excludes hearts, how can that be of Me? I am unity. Exclusion is not
of Me. For there I am in your midst. If you are truly IN Me, then how can you
not be OF Me? And if you are OF Me, how can you behave in any manner than within My
Word, My Way, My Church? Wisdom is My Gift to you. Do you refuse My Gift?
Do you prefer not to hear, lest you harm your inflated ego? For to choose NOT
to consider anything here of which I speak, is because you refuse to hear My Voice.
And so, you live in darkness. You take My Light and you would snuff it out.
My lambs, hear Me: Open your ears. Open your hearts. Be in Me as I
am in Thee. Yes! I repeat it often. For I look, and I find so few.
And others discourage entry into My Truth. These are self-accused. For
as they do unto others, they do so unto themselves.
My Heart is reaching out to all My children. Forgiveness is one sorrow of
yours away. Come and join Me in the fullness of understanding. As full, dear
child, as you need to know. But just the same.....known. Your heart, alive in
Me. Your heart, aflame in Me.
Come, be one in Me as I am in thee. Amen. Amen. Amen. Be not
accused of accusing Me any longer. My Word Lives! I speak as I Will.
Hear Me, O, one who reads! Do not accuse the Master of the ignorance of the
slave. For the "ignorance" you accuse Me of is not innocent. It is
the contrivance of the evil one. And he would devour you. He would devour your
flesh. I have told him you would refuse if you only knew. Be aware, then child
who reads: Satan stands ready to devour My House of Unity. Do not be his
willing pawn. I am telling you this that you are aware. Be on your guard in
ME. Be prepared in ME. Leave your ego at the door and enter My Heart.
Truth is speaking. I would not devour, destroy or accuse. I build up.
You KNOW this, child. Come now, and enter My Abode. My Heart stands
ready to absorb you. My Heart! Let not all the work have been in vain. Amen.
I come for hearts. I come for you. I Love you, lamb. Amen.
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(Zech. 2:5-9,14-15; Jer. 31:10-13; Lk. 9:43-45)
With Love, in the Hearts of Jesus and Mary,
His Sarah