Title: "
So often you give to those who break your heart. The world would crush you. *I* would free you.
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(Notebook XLIV, pp. 190--196)
Live + Jesus
Monday, May 25, 1998
Dear Jesus and Holy Mother,
Come, Holy Spirit! Fill the hearts of Your faithful, and enkindle
in us the Fire of Your Love! Send forth Your Spirit! And we
shall be created! And You shall renew the face of Your Earth!
Amen! Alleluia! Come, Lord Jesus! Maranatha!
O my Lord! How I do thank You for the privilege of prayer.
For You create me. You permit me to speak to You, Who is my God!
O Lord! You give my heart a Home, a Place to soar, a Place to cry,
a Place to be. In you. By Your Grace! God be praised!
Praise be to YOU, O God!
Amen.
Alleluia.
God be praised! For You alone are the Holy One. You alone are
God! You are all and everything that is Good! You are Lord
God of all, and I lay my spirit, my all of who I am.....who You have made
me to be..... before You.
What do I give You, O Worthy God? What gift is this? Compared
to all who are around Me? Compared to all the grandeur of Vermont
which surrounds me? Yet You have given me Faith. And I cannot
turn my back upon Your Presence right here within me. And so I DO
give You a grand gift, my Sweet Lord! I give to you this palace where
You choose to dwell. My Lord, I give You.....me. Make of me
what You Will, O Lord. For I desire Your Perfection, to my imperfection.
Grace me, O God, that I may be for You all You Desire I be. Large
or small, Lord, I offer Your use of me to You. Thank You, O Lord,
for Your Tender Ear. Thank You, O Lord, for Your Tender Heart.
Thank You, O God, for the sigh of my breath which becomes the only thing
left I can offer You. For I am in Awe and Wonder of You, O Giver
of Gifts! O Spirit, Holy Spirit! O Father! O Son!
O God Who is One. Amen. Amen. Amen. Alleluia!
God be praised! Amen.
Child, can you not feel yourself rising on the warmth of your prayer?
(O YES, my Lord! Like a bird soaring high, I can almost feel
its motion.....soaring, gliding on the sweet breath of rising prayer.
By You, O God. By You!)
Child, do you see why it is, you should praise Me? (Yes,
Lord. And I laugh a little because as I look at Your Word, "praise".....I
recall how when I first joined prayer group, I could not imagine why one
would praise You.....because YOU are GOD! Yet, my Lord, praise seems
to.....happen. It seems.....contagious within me. It seems
to ignite itself as I abandon me to You, my Lord.)
Come to Me, all who labour and are weary, for I will give you rest.
I am the elation of your soul, but you must be willing to come to Me. You
must be willing to permit Me to transform you. O children,
this is a process. A PROCESS. It can happen quickly or slowly,
but it is a PROCESS. Pray for Patience, little ones. Patient
Endurance. I am a Process within you, if you permit Me. Know
this: I have created you. *I* know you. I know your beginning
and your end and all your capabilities and weakness. Before Me, you
are naked. All you believe is hidden.....is before Me, in much
boldness. Nothing dark remains in My Light. So it is foolish
to waste time hiding. But I permit it. Because it is your will.
Freely given.....your will, I do not take back. Unless you give it.
Freely. Everywhere you are, I am. At the end of your life,
I am. But I am HERE, NOW. So let us be.
O child.....you are not alone. I am in your heights and your
lows. Your Good. And in Patience I watch your error.
I wait. For repentance from you, with forgiveness from Me.
I always reach out to you. I always Love you. I always
accept any offering from you. But what I Desire is your heart.
Freely given in an act of blind Trust. To Me. So often you
give to those who break your heart. The world would crush you.
*I* would free you.
Come to Me. You are never alone. Everywhere you are,
I am. Cry out. I hear you. Come to Me. Be in Me.
Be alive in Me. In motion in Me. Patient with yourself in Me.
For I am teaching, that you might learn. The Journey is yours to
make WITH Me. Not aside of Me. But IN Me. By the Power
of My Transforming Grace.
Not all growth blooms in the first season. Be happy with yourself
for who I have made. I have made YOU to be YOU. In Me.
Now and forever. Amen. By My Grace you will be one in Me.
Accept My Gift, dear little child. Come, let us open it together.
Perhaps your spirit will escape and fly into My Own when you see the Glory
I have given you. Come, now. Let us go and be together.
You and I. Here and now. Or there. Together. You
and I. Amen. +