Title:  "Self-examination of heart is the greatest healing you can begin."

(Notebook 55, pp. 90--94)

Live  †  Jesus

Our Lady of Sorrows
Wednesday, September 15, 1999

Dear Jesus and Holy Mother,

[Jesus speaks.....]
My children, hear Me.   Sorrow is a Gift for your heart.  For in sorrow, you grow more easily dependent upon Me.  For in sorrow, you are drawn more deeply into My Wounds.   For in sorrow, you share more deeply within My Sacrifice.  True sorrow does not lash out verbally.  True sorrow does not defend.  Sorrow and repentance are closely linked in the Cross, though sorrow and repentance are unique.

The Sorrow My Mother bore was in the Wounds of Redemption.  It is where our Two Hearts have become as one.  "As," I say, because My Mother is in bowed Reverence before Me always.

The tempest strikes.  What shall your sorrow be?  For the bruised ego?  For the bruised challenge to authority?  For the bruised reed who you are?  O little one!  My Act of Chastisement is a SUPREME Act of Mercy!

Yes, I speak through My people.  But, are you REALLY listening?  Are you heeding all the Lessons I place in your midst?  Are you protecting your heart's environment with a moat.....your moat of self-pity?  Are you defending your own ego lest I enter, crush you, and win your heart?  O child!  Other warriors, other hunters would hang your heart from a tree!  They would mount you, lifelessly, upon the wall.  But *I*.....*I* place the heart you would give within My Own!

[.....As Jesus says these last Words, I hear some sounds, and notice a gray squirrel just outdoors, who is feverishly gathering his stores for the winter.....And Jesus continues.....]

Yes!  Be prepared!  Look!  See all that is around you!  Take advantage of this Time.  For some of the sorrow borne by My Mother is for YOU.  Because YOU, her child, has not yet learned your lesson.....and time is fleeting so!  Time, every moment in which you are NOT in Me, is a time, a moment of sorrow to My Mother!  For to see Me well pleased is her delight.  To see Me thirsty for  souls and still unsatisfied, is her sorrow.

Tears soften hearts.  But repentance cleanses hearts.  Forgiveness cleanses hearts.  Absolution heals.  Self-examination of heart is the greatest healing you can begin.

I tell you this:  If every knee should bow and every tongue confess that I, Jesus, am Lord.....I ask.....how can this occur if you are truly about tending the private garden in your heart, if you are kneeling, tending to your own self, protecting yourself from Me, but not TRULY bowing before Me?  If YOU maintain your garden, when *I* am the Gardener, then what, truly, is going on.  Do you trust Me that your act of being will be in ME, aside of YOU?  Or do you think I truly need your help:  Child.....*I* am God.  YOU are not.

Chastisement is a great Act of Mercy.  The pain it inflicts is felt only because you are unwilling to change.  A pure heart would see the need, and respond with true penitence and would TRULY go and sin no more.  Purity of heart is a process and it must grow up from Trust.  Trust does not entertain doubt.  Trust does not entertain any question of My Authority; otherwise, you are in fact, doubting My Authority.  If you believe I can do all things, then LET Me do all things.  Just once.....then you will begin to learn.  And learning will purify itself into Trust.  And Purity of heart shall be.
 
Tears help to purify a heart.  Come.....let Me wash you with the sorrowful tears of My Mother.  Pure tears.  Pure heart.  Pure Love.  Pure soul.  Pure Love.....My Mother.  Her heart, held so closely near Mine.  Pierced with a sword.  Gentle Mother.  Sorrowful heart.  Pure tears.  Joy and love.  Make her your home.  You will learn much from the lap of the Virgin.  For so, too, have I.  Child.....you are called into a certain maturity in Me; and it shall only be accomplished by your child likeness in Me.  Yes, paradox:  maturity in child likeness.  Be mature enough in Faith to finally be a child in Me.  For until you are, My Mother weeps for the ache in My Wounds for you.  Look no where else but to YOUR heart.  For I come for YOU.  And for YOU, the Virgin is sorrowful.  Amen.    †

(Heb. 5:7-9; Ps. 31:2-6, 15-16, 20; Jn. 19:25-27 ~ or ~ Lk. 2:33-35)

With Love, in the Two Hearts,
His Sarah